From Emily_11
Hello... my name is emily... I do not know how this process works if it works at all... this is my last attempt...
I will start off with the most basic blunt facts behind the reasoning of this email...
I am diagnosed with Dissociative Identity Disorder... a total of 9 personalities. My other diagnosis are borderline personality and bi polar manic depressive... I will not go into detail as to why... I have only ever for 20 years wanted to say thank you to the band that calms every personality I possess... every day is a extreme battle to maintain any sanity I have...
I deal... I get by... the peppers music is the only thing ...the only sound that calms the chaos in my head... Ive been in therapy since the age of 3 and take many medications in order to function even a little bit... I refuse to apply for disability... however...when I was 21 I became pregnant with my now 14 year old daughter Eleanor... it was an induced delivery that went wrong and became an emergency c section... the fear and panic of the situation led me to sing the lyrics of "snow" throughout the whole process... the anesthesiologist asked why I was singing this... my reply was that I wanted the first thing she ever heard to be the lyrics of the only music that calmed every part of my mental anguish...
When she turned 13... they became the only band that gave her the peace they gave me... I am not expecting to ever meet them. Such a thing is not in the cards for me... however...all I want to do is thank them... many fans say they saved their life... in my case it is very true... I have had a few suicide attempts in which I actually should be dead... the doctors were perplexed as to how I managed to survive... that was the worst... but their music...no matter how much therapy or chemicals they give me...their music is and has been the only miracle to keep me afloat... I can only wish and hope someone reads this and at very least relays my story to them... and if I am lucky, or blessed, or ot manifests through Devine intervention tell them how grateful I am and thankful... I would lime to add one last little thing... at the age of 16 there was a music channel that aired from canada... they only played all day music videos and took requests from viewers... the show I believe was called "Fuze" ...at the time in my household YouTube was not really accessible... so, I wrote a letter to the address provided requesting the video for "Around the "world" ... the host read my letter and from what I understand it was live tv... however they played the video for "Otherside " ... I had seen that video countless times on that show and every time I was calmed and felt while. and with a personality system of 9 it was so rare if no existent to obtain such bliss... however I really wanted to see the video for "Around the World". I found it absolutely miraculous that my letter was chosen and read on live tv... I am truly blessed... I to this day at the age of 36 will randomly cry at the thought of just being able to say thank you... my mental illness has always been my reality...it is such a struggle however it is all I k kw... personally... I'm grateful for it in some way... anyway... I do not expect to ever shake their hands and personally say thank you or even know if this letter is received... however, I just need to try... Love and Light to all of you and I pray you all receive the energy I send your way through meditative attemps... God bless synchronicity and and the connections it brings...
blessed be 333.
Sincerely a truly grateful fan...
Emily L.
